Mama Bear (without the sore head)

  Wow I can't believe it's been nearly 2 months since I last posted. It's been a real rollercoaster time if I'm honest. I can't pin point what it was that made the cart run away, but it really did and I fell off. I fell off the sobriety wagon, my mental health suffered and things started to unravel. There was definitely an element of the pandemic effect that contributed. The non-stop juggle of having 2 young kids at home, plus an au pair and both myself and my husband working from home was starting to take its toll. Add in the on-off dilemma of whether or not we would get a summer holiday and I felt broken. I felt like I really needed a break but even if I took time off it would only be work taken out of the equation - all the other balls would still need to be juggled and I needed more than that. So instead of coming up with a sensible plan I opened a bottle of wine to blot it all out......and then another.....and another..... (with a couple of bottles of whiskey t...