Sleep!

It's been very rare for me to make it past 10:30pm in recent years. I've lost count of how many movies I've missed the end of or the number of times I've had to re-watch Holby City or Casualty because I've fallen asleep half way through. Now, however it's the complete opposite. I've become so accustomed to alcohol sedating me, that it's really bloody hard to get to sleep!

I've found that A/F G&T or sparkling wine gets me through the evening just fine. Having experimented with quite a few I've nw found some great ones (more on that in another post) but that end of evening nightcap is harder to replace. For the first week I just got more and more tired as my sleep was rubbish and it was taking me until well gone midnight to get to bed. Given my 2 year old has me up by 6:30am without fail every morning, I was beginning to wonder if this was sustainable. However the past few nights I've started to feel naturally sleepy at the end of the evening and the cravings for the whiskey nightcap are definitely subsiding so I'm definitely starting to feel more positive about evenings going forwards.

In contrast to the evenings, mornings are the best bit of sobriety so far. I've always been a bit of an early bird but the past few months I've really struggled to get up and get going. the last few days I have been happily getting out of bed when my little human alarm clock wakes me (and even getting up before him this morning!). It's not just how I feel, but what I get done in the morning now. Previously I would sit nurse cup after cup of tea (and usually a few biscuits thrown in for good measure) just feeling rubbish and not wanting to move - especially when the boys wanted milk/toy box open/nappy changed/bum wiped etc etc. The past few days I have been clearing up, dealing with emails, getting us all breakfast and even baking - all before 8am! Now maybe when the mornings are dark and miserable I might not feel the same enthusiasm but at the moment I'm enjoying every early minute of the day.

And on that note, it's off to bed for me - night night.

SMB xx

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